I'm going to do it...

Way too much stress today, but I rounded it out with dinner and a (DVD at home) movie with Brit. We watched Crash, which was really good and kinda reminded me of Amores Perros in a weird way.

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You know, it's always sorta annoying when people post song lyrics because they're... like... so relevant to their lives. But I'm going to do it because that's how I'm feeling at the moment, so feel free to skip the rest.

"Where Will You Go"

You’re too important for anyone
You play the role of all you long to be
But I, I know who you really are
You’re the one who cries when you’re alone

[CHORUS:]
But where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can’t escape
You can’t escape

You think that I can’t see right through your eyes
Scared to death to face reality
No one seems to hear your hidden cries
You’re left to face yourself alone

[Chorus]

I realize you’re afraid
But you can’t abandon everyone
You can’t escape
You don’t want to escape

I’m so sick of speaking words that no one understands
Is it clear enough that you can’t live your whole life all alone
I can hear you when you whisper
But you can’t even hear me screaming

[Chorus]

I realize you’re afraid
But you can’t reject the whole world
You can’t escape
You won’t escape
You can’t escape
You don’t want to escape

Cold!

Winter has finally come to Boston. Well, for now at least. Highs in the upper 30s for the next 5 days. :(

Snow tomorrow (1-3 inches). Snow Tuesday. I can't wait until I get out of this place for the holidays.

Sigh...

Well, things are a bit better. I finally realized that when I really get down to do it, I do have a lot of stuff to do, but it's possible. I'm at lab at the moment and just finished setting up some experiments that I hope to have results for.

So the rest of my weekend (plus Monday):

1. Make slides for lab meeting talk on Tuesday (send to my boss tomorrow)
2. Write three proposal critiques (by Tuesday)
3. Knitting tomorrow afternoon, so I don't go nuts
4. Grade section problem sets, if possible

There's always a crunch at the end of the quarter/semester. Everything is going along at a fairly normal pace, but then all of a sudden everyone (instructors included) realizes that it's almost over - there's hardly any time left - and we have so much left to do!!!

And then I go nuts. Because I'm one of those people that spends more time worrying when there's so much to be done. I sit there, not accomplishing anything, thinking "I have so much to do, I'll never get it done in time!" when really I just need to do it.